Haah... I didn't think that I would hate my classmates in college, just because even after a year they spread rumors about me: "Wow, he has long hair, maybe he's gay at all", "He has a very indifferent look on his face", "Yes, he definitely fucks with boys" and other bullshit... Yes, I could ignore it all, but it's just shocking when your best friend from college talks about you the same way, and it's fucking sad.
Why me? What did I do wrong?
I'm even more disappointed in the new environment of people, I can't trust anyone else.
Yes, it probably sounds sentimental, and it sounds like I'm crying over nothing. But I really want to speak out, even though I know it's wrong to speak out in the wrong place, because it's still a creative platform.
Как же грустно осознавать, что новые однокурсники разводят такие слухи, даже после того, как ты год вместе с этими огузками проучился. Ненавижу из-за этого учебу в техникуме. Я бы и мог перевестись, но у меня не так много опций на самом деле. Да и как это исправит мое ментальное состояние? Если я только сейчас понял, что мир за пределами моего же панциря комфорта, куда более ужасен, чем я предполагал.
Я не знаю куда и зачем я это говорю, ибо я просто хотел высказаться, вот и всё...
I don't know where or why i'm saying this, but i just wanted to speak out, that's all..
SouSTAR
Don't feel bad about talking about bad people. Don't feel bad about yourself. These people deserve to be shamed.
We can ignore things that are far away from us, but of course it will be near impossible to ignore something that is happening right before your eyes.
As far as I know, "having long hair" or "having an indifferent look" harm nobody, therefore isn't wrong.
Your friend is still "people", and people change, for better or worse. I don't know the situation between you two, nor I know if discussion is still possible at this point, but maybe talking with your friend about how he make you feel bad and that your classmates are in the wrong too (just between you two) could knock some sense into him. Maybe he think that's funny. Maybe he think just because you look indifferent means you don't care. In this case, tell him, in a private discussion.
Don't inverse the roles. (As far as I know) you did nothing wrong, the bad ones are the classmates who have nothing else to do than mocking people like shameless 4 graders.
clqud
Woah... I'm not really expected "one large reply from person that i don't really know ". But i'm still appreciated 'bout your reply.
And yeah, that situation quite... more complicated, and yet i can't describe it more understandable, because i'm not good at describing something on english and i'm really burn out from that situation.
Anyway thanks for words of supporting...